A very wise person once said, “Do not spend your time considering those who refuse to be considerate of you.”
Once upon a time, I considered many who refused to be considerate. I successfully broke this unhealthy habit…..but for two exceptions.
Tonight, there is but one exception left.
I have spent thiry-one years of my life convinced that waiting thirty-one years was simply the price I had to pay to find the span of distance from which to begin the great, slow work of creating common ground.
Tonight, I accept and acknowledge that I was wrong.
Thirty-one years couldn’t do it. A lifetime cannot do it.
There are things a person can manage alone and then, there are things that require another to see them through.
This is a thing that requires two beings to begin any engagement from the stance that, regardless humanity, misunderstandings, resentments, frustrations, regardless all, underneath all, two things are conviction, are constants of belief, faith even:
1. That there is love, and,
2. That there is only best and good intent.
Tonight, I accept and acknowledge that no matter how much and how long I have carefully nourished and sustained these two in myself, I have no power whatever to manage it for another.
I accept and acknowledge that it is not believed, nor will it ever be so.
I accept and acknowledge that it is not desired, nor will it ever be so.
I accept and acknowledge that it is not reciprocated, nor will it ever be so.
No amount of wishing, no amount of waiting, nothing can or will change this.
I do not have the words to convey how sorrowful I am that this is so.
I do not have the words to convey how regretfully I let you go.
Regardless all this acceptance and admission, these two things remain; I keep them for myself and in myself because, to me, they are precious… just as you are to me.
Regardless how precious, however, there comes a point and time at which such things only create more hurt than they can ever hope to heal.
This is the point. This is the time.
Always and in all ways, I wish for and to you only the best.
Always and in all ways, I wish that you know contentment, happiness, and health.
Always and in all ways, I wish that you find more than you hope, less than you fear, and all that you ever, ever need.
Om Benza Satva Hum, Daniel; may all karma pass to me and bypass you.